New

It's a new year. It's been about 4 months since I returned from Russia. And to be honest, I've not thought about it nearly as much as I would have hoped. I think about the kids every time I hear "Everything" by Lifehouse. I think about how Phedya loved it and how I knew that somehow he understood exactly what the song meant. But I haven't been processing it properly. I've allowed myself to avoid it just like I do so many other things. I've allowed myself to be distracted by simple things that are easy to think about. That require no depth. This new year means changing that. I'm going to start being completely honest with myself. It's okay to be sad. But it's also okay to be happy. That's a lesson I'm doing my best to learn.